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Mausam

It feels like fall, though it is prime summer. Should have been the time for feverish activity and unrelenting purpose For I know that this is the last stretch No time for sentimental retch
But there is this nagging feeling again… “Purpose is pointless. Motivation is madness.” When the sky is vast, the breeze is unbridled and the oceans wild, This daily routine is a damnation
There is a kitten in my backyard He looks at me with his damaged eye His loveliness makes me cry I want to caress and hold him nigh.. But even before I do that, I know it is not enough… For it is not just cuteness… It is a dare to dissolve Oh! The bluntness…
It’s been a while since I let a feline friend move me to tears All I want is to flop back to earth And take the maternal embrace of the dirt I want to let the borders of my body dissolve into the top soil I should remember to relax I should remember that I had been here before…
Oh! how many times more, this seasonal drama? How many more cycles of summer and…
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The Cat

He is a lovely kitten. He is very young, a mere baby. He keeps his eyes closed all the time. And he is out there. From my couch in the living room, I just see a mound of fluff in the middle of my backyard. He curls into his own body. Intermittently his body shudders in the morning cold. I feel a motherly pang within me. I worry: why does he venture out to the open? Why can’t he stay cozy under the bush like his siblings?
He seems to remind me of what is to be done. It seems easy in retrospect to venture unprotected into the cold for the first time. Does it become easier the second time around?
I suddenly become aware of the many things. Like the passing time. Last week, someone suddenly mentions my age. I am also becoming aware of the structures that I have created for myself. Coming from a space of no framework or organization, I was scared that I could not become a proverbial cog in the wheel. And revolting as it sounds, I wanted to be the cog. And I loved the wheel. I could not b…

The Wait

"நகரும் நொடிகள்
கசையடி போலே
முடிகினின் மேலே விழிவதினலே
வரி வரி கவிதை"

-Thamari - "Thalli Pogathey" from the movie "Achcham Yenbadhu Madamaiada"

Image credits: "Window seat" by Bob Rey

Just a few more days this wait
Set for myself this bait
Waiting not just for you
But for a life more inebriate


PS: The above-mentioned Tamil verse means something to the effect of :
Every moving second feels like a whip on my back, the scars of which forms lines of a poem.

रहना तू

तुझे चाहूँ जैसा है तू मुझे तेरी बारिश में भीगना है, घुल जाना तुझे चाहूँ जैसा है तू मुझे तेरी लपट में जलना राख हो जाना
Prasoon Joshi “Rehna Tu” - Delhi 6
Thus spake the poet Prasoon Joshi Don't know what's his story Don't know yet: Who was haunting him? Who was his muse? The Demon or the Deacon Dreary? But... Crushed I was by his words' glory Reminded I was of your sweet gentle memory
Can’t believe I am missing you so much. I love you so very much that I am hating myself...
PS: Meaning of the above hindi lyrics: I like you, just the way you are
I want to drench myself in your rain and get dissolved in it..
I like you, just the way you are
I want to get burnt in your flame, and burn away to ashes..

Going to Ireland

I have reached Dublin! I am currently going through the excitement that normally accompanies getting thrown into a new place. Everything is different! Everything is new! Perhaps that's why I chose this tiny island to pass off my days as a coolie-for-hire. A chance to start on a clean slate. It is not as if I am running away from anything but once in a way there is this growing temptation to pack your whole life into 2 suitcases and hit the road. Or perhaps maybe I expect the new country will excite me enough. But i think it is mostly the Anonymity which I longed for. Much like Veera when she tells her strait-laced fiancé "Let's run away".


When i decided to come back to the industry, I was super-scared that i just would not have the fire in the belly to get anything done in a corporate environment. My experiences in Seattle looked like a lifetime of dreary ennui. But in some ways I feel I have made my peace with this world - material et all. God, I am even finding so…

Meditations on Interstellar - The Revenge of the Nerds

Recently, I have been following Space exploration with some kind of awkward enthusiasm. Reason for the enthusiasm is because I was deeply moved by the movie "Interstellar". Reason for the awkwardness will be dealt with in another blog post. It is not often that you watch a movie which makes you groping in the dark uncharted spaces of your mind. Watching Interstellar filled me with deep wonder about the nature of the universe and such. The closest experience similar to this is perhaps the movie "The Matrix". It is not just the experience of watching the movie but the after taste keeps you ruminating on the many questions that gets explored during the movie.

Christopher Nolan is a genius. He is a master of creating a world. And when you play god and create worlds of your own, you cannot help painting the world with your own ideologies. These prejudices are so clever because they are so subtle. One specific idea that I found fascinating is Nolan's idea of what ro…

Get Knocked-up - So that we can stay in business - #AdsThatSuck

There was a time when Hindustan Unilever used to take over YouTube and force everyone to watch this video..What this video is telling is for you to get knocked-up, have lots of children so that Unilever can stay in Business. Marketing is a dirty business. Convincing people to buy something that they might not need is not necessarily a vocation. However when you think you can be one step ahead of the audience and outsmart them is a little unnerving. Somehow i could never get convinced of Unilever's Project Sunshine ads. It smacks of self-reverential goodness. It is like you show cute cats, cuter puppies and then show your product in the hope that people will buy it. It insults one's intelligence.
Sorry maybe i am just cynical but Project Sunlight's #brightfuture just does not cut it.

#AdsThatSuck